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Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
9:43 am	It's my birthday! It's mine and Andrew's birthday today! Taking the day off and have a busy but fun day planned. Am off to start opening my presents, have lots of them and even more to come later. Wow am a lucky girl! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
8:55 pm	I didn't realise I wish I could take the sadness from your eyes I simply didn't realise I was hurting you I didn't realise that what I had done had hurt you You mean so much more to me then you realise If I could, I'd reach up to the sky and catch the stars for you I would never have done what I did if I thought or realised it would cause you so much pain. Current Mood: crappy (Comment on this)
Friday, September 10th, 2004
7:28 pm	Update Bouncer has been the vets again, she has given him two injections since he cant keep his tablets down him. One for his heart and the other for his arthritis. But he is still keeping little food down him. He has to go back tomorrow. Am going to insist she put him on a drip. It's all very well giving him these injections but he needs to have eat to stop him becoming so weak. In other news, I've got work for Monday so far and hopefully will get some more for the rest of the week. It can be slow at the start of term though. Am going to try and get something more permanent for the start of the January term. I think supply work has its pros and cons, you certainly gain a lot of classroom management skills and some teachers argue that all teachers should have to do supply work. But the down side to it isnt great. You dont get treated like a 'proper' teacher by the kids, you dont get the same respect, you dont get to build up a rapore with the children or get to settle into a routine. You dont get to teach, you more or less 'babysit' the kids. Of course that is when you do daily supply work. When I was teaching Psychology I actually got to plan and teach real lessons and I will miss not doing that. Lets hope I get something either permanent by myself or long term through one of the agencies. I sorted out my teaching file before so am all prepared for Monday! I'll be glad to work again. Jenn called last night and stayed on the phone for about an hour, my word that girl can talk! Weekend plans are to go to a family 40th birthday party for one of my cousins. We all have to get really dressed up. The men in monkey suits, etc. Am bringing Laura as my guest. It should be fun, a chance to let my hair down and de-stress with the recent goings on of returning home. Other than that, right at this moment in time am VERY bored with nothing to do, sighes. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
1:49 pm	Back home! Am back! It was great to get on the plane and hear some British accents! It was also very good to be back on British roads, which I actually understand and know where am going! It's a lovely sunny day here too. I'll write a longer update about the trip later on, at the moment am just too tired. Everyone made me feel so welcome though and I met some great people there! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 23rd, 2004
5:03 pm	All packed! Well am all packed and as I suspected I had to use the larger suitcase! Half of the contents wont be coming back with me anyway, suntan lotions, Leannes presents and her DVD's etc. It's pretty heavy though! The weather here is rubbish, I'll be glad to get out in the sunshine! We have had an appalling summer really. Am excited but not looking forward to the long journey. Hope there is some good in-flight films on. A Friends feast would be good but I dont think I'll be that lucky! Am just looking forward to Leanne being there to greet me at the airport. Have to ask her what the definite plans are when I get there, think we are going for a meal. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 21st, 2004
1:49 pm	Weekend Plans and Houston! Yesterday was very comical to say the least, trying to help Alishya and Alan move house. Almost as soon as I started to help out, I managed to get myself wedged in between a mattress and a wall in the middle of the stairs. Much to the amusement of myself and Alishya. Then when Alishya let one of the dogs in (the one who managed to jump up at me and scratch my nose, close to my eye once). It decided to make a run for me again, plus he was covered in mud too. Needless to say I was keen not to have a repeat of that performance so off I ran around the living room like a mad woman with the dog in hot pursuit after me. He isnt an aggressive dog just too playful. Alishya again found this amusing but luckily I managed to dodge the dog every time it got near me and Alishya got it away for me. Didnt get to help her as much as I would have liked but we could only do so much till she got the phone call to say the move was going ahead that day. Today or rather tonight am going to Michelles to stay over, likely get a takeout and video, looking forward to it. Tomorrow am seeing Laura. She has booked the day off work to spend time with me and am seeing Karen too as she wants to see me before I go away. It's quite sweet really. We are going to the Trafford Centre, havent yet decided what we are doing. But theres the pictures there, shops, bowling and so forth,am sure it will be good. Cant believe am going to be in Houston on Tuesday! I really cant wait to see Leanne again, cant wait to see her stood there waiting for me at the airport. I'll hug her so much I wont let go till she goes blue in the face and needs medical assistance. Hehe. Am looking forward to meeting Jeff, be good to meet him after chatting for months over a computer. To see Jenn again will be great too. Leanne has lots planned, we are going to a water park, crazy golf in the dark which sounds like fun, a day out somewhere but cant remember where, San something! Theres loads more she has planned but cant remember it all. It will be so much fun and to be all American, it will be 'awesome'. Am excited and nervous but I really cant wait. The one thing am not looking forward to is the flying. It's the take off and landing I dont like and I'll be all by myself. Lets hope I'll have someone friendly to sit next to on the plane. I have flown by myself before to Spain, so am sure I'll be fine. Likely wont sleep much Monday night, and dont really sleep flying so I'll likely be a walking zombie when I get there, lol. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
3:25 pm	Shopping trip and spider horror! So this morning I got up and got ready to go shopping with my mum in Liverpool. I was getting ready and sorting out my washing into different piles when all of a sudden this MASSIVE spider ran out of the clothes I was sorting out for washing. My word, I got such a fright and screamed so loud my mum came rushing up the stairs to see what was wrong. It went under my bed, so we had to move that, with it being a double bed thats no easy task. My mum found it once the bed was moved and whacked it with the paper but it was so big it didnt die. She eventually got it, after moaning at me for screaming so loud. But she did admit it was a big spider. The thought of it in my room last night while I slept, yuk! Doesnt bare thinking about, could have been crawling over me. Anyway went shopping and had a nice lunch. Managed to get all I wanted no problem, but we had to run for the train and as my mum cant run fast with her back anymore we just jumped on the train without a ticket for me. Little did we know that only YESTERDAY they introduced a fixed penalty for getting on a train without a ticket. The man at central station was very nice and said I can appeal which of course I will do. Dont think it will get me any were but I will try. Off for tea with Karen a bit later, she can fill me in on all her work news. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 15th, 2004
3:43 pm	The little book of more abuse. Laura kindly bought me The Little Book of MORE Abuse, already have The little Book of Abuse. I saw it the other week when I was out shopping with Laura but didnt buy it, and complained on the way home how I should have got it. Thoughtfully Laura bought it for me later on and would'nt take any money for it, despite my protests. Anyway, some of the one-liners really made me chuckle, so I thought I'd share some in this live journal. Of course dont DARE try and use them on me, or there will be some serious arse kicking! You have been warned, lol.... One-liners for the really annoying people in your life. Why don't you cut your losses and join a freak show? Here's 10p. Go call someone who cares. I like you, your such a screw-up you make me look successful. Ugly? she got done for indecent exposure and only her face was showing. You couldnt fart and chew gum at the same time. Your over 18 but your IQ isnt. If brains were taxed she'd get a rebate. I'd like to see things from your view point, but I cant seem to get my head that far up my arse. He's a man of few words but not few enough. Any part of you that touches me your not getting back. I cant believe the sperm that created you beat twenty million others. You can park a bus in the shadow of his arse. He's the definition of dark and handsome. When it's dark, he's handsome. Have you got a minute? Tell me everything you know. Why dont you go home and tell your mother she wants you? Hope that they made you laugh a little... (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
5:39 pm	Weekend update... Went to Leanne's to see her mum and dad. I wasnt sad when I pulled up in the drive way at the thought of Leanne not being there, as am seeing her the week after next! Yay! I was a bit disappointed that her dad wasnt there, but had a good chat to Leanne's mum. Despite what she says, she does love company, she cant fool me! She even offered to give me a lift to the airport if I needed it. She said I could stay over the night before if I liked. I was really touched but explained that I already had a lift. Of course it could have been her way of making sure I actually go, get me out of the country for a bit, hehe. Picked up the DVD's for Leanne as promised too. Collecting lots of goodies to take with me for Leanne's birthday off various people. You are one lucky lady Leanne! Then I went to meet Kevin, due to a lack of communication (likely my fault, opps) Kevin hadnt eaten as he thought we were having lunch and I had already eaten. Not wanting to go through the same scenario as the day before (having two lunches) I insisted he still eat, and I had a side order so he didnt feel too bad eating by himself. Headed back home but dont have anything else planned for the day really. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
4:31 pm	Blah mood! Michelle came over with Lewis before, didnt know if she would cancel or not due to the terrible weather but she made it over. The weather was that bad that we couldnt go out so had to stay in. Lewis is a handful as are most two year olds I guess, he is into everything, certainly keeps me on my toes! Mum had to go for more blood tests, before, five of them and she has her bone scan while am away. She is worried as our we all. I've been worried about it ever since she told me last month. I know that worry is a useless emotion, you can't change anything with worry but you cant help but worry can you? It's human nature. The rest of the day, I've pottered about doing bits and bobs. Thinking and pondering about things. Mainly about my relationship with Andrew. We have never had a great relationship, in some ways because we are so different I guess, not on the same wave-length and in others because we are similar. It's been on my mind lately, and I don't know why really. I'd love to be able to go out with him like my other friends can do with their brothers and sisters. But in reality, it's not going to happen, we barely hold conversations, I have more deep and meaningful conversations with Bouncer it seems. It's not like we 'hate' one another like we did when we were younger, he will chat a bit more now when he comes up, ask if I had a good holiday etc but thats the extent of it on both sides. If I tried to ask him to go out am sure he would look at me like I had two heads, and isnt that sad, he is my brother, my twin. I know some of my friends dont like him because of the way he has treated me in the past, but thats just it, thats the past, we are adults and I wish I was closer to him. Don't get me wrong, he is protective over me, does the whole 'big brother' thing from time to time, but we arent close. We are the opposite to each other in nearly everything I can think of, even down to physical traits. Like he has blue eyes I have brown, he is right-handed and am left-handed. You name it, we are like chalk and cheese. I dont know, it's something I want to change, but how do I change the way our relationship has been for years? What if he isnt even bothered? The way I would describe Andrew is very 'deep' as far as emotions go, he doesnt reveal much. Any advice would be appreciated on this one, any suggestions on how I could begin to change things? Any advice?.... (Comment on this)
Monday, August 9th, 2004
3:11 pm	Interview Had my interview. There was three of them, thought it would only be one lady. It was fairly informal. Sounded like it would be challenging in some respects but also easy in other respects. Dont think I'll get it though as they want somebody to start on August 27th. They wont wait for me to get back will they? I couldnt start till the 8th of September! Sighes, wonder why they bothered interviewing me in the first place. Walking up I saw some of the film sets which was cool, there was lots of hustle and bustle. The place had a good feel to it. They will let the agency know tomorrow but dont think I'll get it due to the fact that I cant start when they want. We'll see...... Dropped Laura off for work this morning and am picking her up later as she bumped her car yesterday and its not making a good sound when she drives it. I told her to put it into the garage today for repairs and said I'd drop her off for work and pick her up. I didnt want her driving it, it may be dangerous! Other than that, its been a fairly easy going day. Not much going on. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 8th, 2004
5:49 pm	Weekend update Yesterday meet up with Karen at the Cherry Tree by Leanne's as a sort of half way meeting point for lunch. We gabbed that much we were there till tea time. The weather was really hot, so after lunch we had a drink outside. Were what seemed like thousands of wasps made a bee line for us. We had every intention of nipping in to see Leanne's mum and dad but didnt make it, as we didnt realise the time. So I'll likely go next week one afternoon and see Leannes dad at least. Am sure he'll be glad of the company with still being off work. Then I headed home for tea and to get ready to go out for Alex's birthday. It was a good night, although mixing my drinks was not a good idea and I couldn't attempt to keep up with the others, being a lightweight. I don't get hang overs mind you which is a good thing. At one point I felt myself getting really tipsy and slowed down. Normally it just hits me with no warning. It was so hot though, too hot in most of the bars. We ended up in Reflex for some cheesy music and a dance. I was happy wherever as long as the musics good, but do like a bit of a dance. Got home about 2.45am, and woke up about 8.30. I refused to get up and forced myself back off to sleep. Today we had lovely weather at first so I got myself all ready to sunbathe in the garden and the sun went in literally as I went outside. Oh well. Watched the Charity Shield football match with my dad, we lost. Boooo! Oh well. So today has been a lazy day really. I've got my interview tomorrow. It will only be a contact for two months I think, always know that, but I think it would be very interesting. Who knows could be inspired and leave the teaching profession to become an actress! Wonder what part I would suit playing if I ever were an actress? Listen to me letting my imagination run away with me. (Comment on this)
Friday, August 6th, 2004
5:43 pm	Interview I have got an interview for the job on Monday at 2pm. They must have not minded that I wont be there for the start. It's on the set of Hollyoaks that I have to go to. When I told Michelle she was all star struck as she watches it. She was with me when I got the call before. I dont watch it but even if I did I wouldnt be bothered. I'll have to see what its all about when I get there, if they like me and if am happy with the situation. It would be to tutor the kids from the Grange Hill show, so I would have to liaise with the school and be able to cover a variety of subjects. Most of it I would be fine with as its year 7 and year 9 kids, but maybe not with maths for year 9. Guess it depends what topics their covering. Anyway we will see I guess. It should be interesting to find out more information at least... (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 5th, 2004
5:13 pm	Job opportunity! One of the agencies rung saying that they had an opportunity to work for Mersey Television with the children on the Grange Hill pro-gramme. Never actually asked were it is based as far as I know Grange Hill is filmed in London so I dont know if I'd be based there. Isnt it funny after the LJ I entered this morning? I suppose the afternoon knows what the morning never suspected. It would be an opportunity for me to put my plans into action and could mean I get my own space for a bit. Perhaps am jumping ahead yet, dont even know where it would be based, but am really excited at the prospect! I think it would be foolish of me to knock opportunities particularly when I go on so much about how much I feel like am in a rut. (Comment on this)
11:17 am	Changes need to be made One thing is for sure, I need to have my own space and privacy. Living at home just doesnt feel 'healthy' anymore at all. I said the other week in this LJ I needed to make changes to my life, take real action and this is definitely one of those changes. It may have been highlighted by the fact that am home so much lately but it seems that my mum is getting worse for worrying and so on. It seems to me at times she treats me like a child without meaning to. It grates on my nerves so much at the moment. She is terrible for worrying, it's been noted by all of my friends. Dont get me wrong, I know she loves me and thinks the world of me, and its great she cares so much but she worries too much and it can infringe on my life too much as a consequence. So am going to have to start putting plans together about this and thinking about it a lot more. Moving out could be the best thing I do in many ways. I cant do it right away of course, but I am going to start planning for it. I feel like I am going to explode otherwise. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 4th, 2004
5:21 pm	Quick update Laura and I shopped till we dropped yesterday. I got two tops, Leanne's birthday present, well part of it and then went to meet up with Kevin. We had to pick his glasses first for him. Managed to narrow it down to seven pairs, of course Kevin being Kevin, he made me take picture of him in every pair with his phone in the middle of the shop, all in a specific order and then write out the codes, as well as hold all the glasses for him! Honestly, he is worse than a girl at times! We then went for something to eat. I was surprised at how well Laura and Kevin got on and wondered if I could try and do a bit of match making between them, ummm. Have to think about that, dont know whether Laura would be up for that, he isnt normally her type personality wise, but they did seem to get on really well. Kevin was on form and was very quick witted, as usual taking the mick out of me. I got a few back at him, but he was too quick for me yesterday most of the time. I was tired, well thats my excuse anyway! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 3rd, 2004
11:15 am	Am off again! Yay, am going to see Leanne I can't wait and Jenn too. Am so looking forward to it and glad everything has been booked and sorted out, at last. I wasnt intending to book last night at all, but when Leanne was on line and said the flight prices had gone down, it would have been stupid of me not to! They could have went up again by today. Wanted Leanne to check that Jenn would definitely get the time off work and that she was definitely coming, and when she said she was after a bit of tooing and throwing or however the phrase goes I decided to book it! The guy on the phone who booked it for me was really nice, somehow by the end of the conversation, he had found out that I was going over to see my best friend, that I had a dog named Bouncer who he said hoped wouldnt miss me too much and that I would be flying back with Leanne. Very strange, he should have been a detective rather than a travel consultant. He was just friendly I guess. Am so looking forward to it, will be great to have a holiday with Leanne, see Jenn and meet Jeff and all of Leannes other friends who she has spoke to me about so often. I get to meet Jason too, hopefully he will understand me in person better. I've seem photos of them all and she has spoken to me loads about them but it isnt the same is it. It will be nice to see what this Houston thing is all about! (Comment on this)
Monday, August 2nd, 2004
4:52 pm	Plans for the week! My plans are now coming into shape. Am seeing Kevin tomorrow night now instead as he is busy with work Wednesday. We will likely grab a bit to eat, and then do some shopping. The Trafford Centre is open till 10 oclock and have a feeling, he will make me shop till I drop! Its a shame Leanne wont be there as usual. Friday am seeing Michelle, dont know what we are doing yet but she just texted to meet up. Have a doctors appointment friday morning though so wont be able to stay over the night before, otherwise I'd offer to baby sit for her. Wednesday will need to see Alex during the day to drop off her present and then either see Kath or Alishya. Whichever one I dont see, I 'll see on thursday. But am happy, I've got a much more busier week this week! Yay! (Comment on this)
9:55 am	Weekend bordem So the weekend was very quiet with nothing to do really. Luckily the weather was nice so I got out in that. Michelle nipped in yesterday afternoon with Lewis, he certainly keeps you on your toes, the terrible twos as they say! Then I managed to arrange seeing Laura last night. We just went to the pub, the Coach and Horses which we never go to, meet an old friend of a friend and chatted for a bit. Then Laura and I had a good old natter. We both didnt shut up, me cos I'd been bored all weekend and Laura because she had been stuck in work all weekend. This week should be more eventful at least, am glad to say as am going insane here at times. Got to go today into Ormskirk to see about JSA, then I've arranged to see Kath this week, Alishya at some point, Kevin to help him choose another pair of glasses and Michelle too. Haven't made definite plans with anyone apart from Kevin, am meeting up with him on Wednesday. Will either try and see Kath or Alishya tomorrow. Also got Alex's birthday on Saturday night too, think we are all going into town. Should be a more eventful week, while I like to chill out too much of anything is a bad thing. (Comment on this)
Friday, July 30th, 2004
9:17 pm	Mixed emotions and a re-evaluation When I went to Michelles last night we went out for tea and had a few drinks afterwards. She knew I wasnt right (I havent been for a while really, trying to sort out stuff myself, and then other things crop up that seem more important than my problems.) I dont usually talk a great deal about myself, but somehow I found I was pouring all sorts out about how I feel, my fears, hopes, disappointments, you name it. It was actually REALLY good to do that. I didnt realise how much stuff had been getting to me till I started talking. Michelle was great as well. When I finished I felt 'better' for having the talk. Yeah I still have the same problems but I felt at least relieved now that I had talked about my problems. Michelle said some lovely things about me, as a person, I said she was biased as she was my cousin which she said was rubbish. However, I did give myself one compliment (yes me, give myself a compliment, how rare is that), I said that as much as am a sensitive person which everyone knows, I also believe that am a strong person, as equally as I am sensitive. Which Michelle agreed with. I think she felt sad that I havent said anything to her before, and she told me that she always wanted me to talk to her about stuff, which was great to hear, although, I know my friends are hear for me, its always nice to hear from time to time, makes you feel more secure. Truth is I havent really spoke to anyone about feeling down about life in general (except for the odd comment in my LJ weeks ago, and even then it was just to write stuff down as a release) Likely what am doing now. Dont get me wrong am not in the depths of despair, am just unhappy with my life and the direction or lack of direction it is taking and have been for a while. But am no quitter, I refuse to just give in and accept what life has or hasnt given me. All I know is that my life has to change in a big way, if am ever to get out of this rut, if things are to change for me. I can no longer carry on like this anymore. Life is too short, I need to change my life for the better. As the saving goes, 'your a long time dead'. I dont know quite what am going to do, but I need to stop talking about life and start taking action. A life without risk is no life at all. Michelle is also trying to help me figure stuff out, see how I can sort my life out. Do you know am a fool at times, I always go on that I have great friends who care about me so much, yet I rarely ever ask for a helping hand. I know there is nothing wrong with excepting help, I just rarely do, partly because I dont like to bother people and partly because I dont think people can help. But I admit I am wrong on both counts. It doesnt bother me when my friends turn to me for guidance and support, they always do, and am always happy to help and want to, I'd be upset if they didnt want to talk to me about their problems. It works both ways doesnt it, am glad am starting to open up more. On a more positive note, the phone rang before to my initial irritation as there was an exciting bit on Eastenders, but when I answered, it was Jenn on the phone from America. I knew straight away it was her despite not speaking to her for years, and was so pleased to hear from her. I havent spoken to her since University. We have always stayed in touch over the years via emails and are always sending each other parcels, she sent me one the other week in fact. She stayed on the phone for over 30 minutes and we had a chat about how great it was when she was in England and we all used to hang out together. She is excited about the possibililty of seeing me again. It will be so great to see here again. I'll ring her in a few days time to chat again. For now am all talked out! (Comment on this)